Clarissa

I`ve known this song since I was that quiet little girl in Sunday school. We sang this almost every Sunday, becoming one of the first few songs I knew every word to.

But just last Sunday when I attended the afternoon service with my mom, I heard the Worship Team sing this song and good Lord! It hasn`t struck me as hard it did the last time I heard it. Every word quietly whispered to me in capital letters. Every note sang a melody only my heart was able to comprehend. It was as if the song was written for that mighty purpose.. And as if everything that has happened in my life came down to that very moment - my total surrender. For moments in that crowded sanctuary, it was only me and God.

Suddenly, all the pain and sorrows that have weathered my journey have flashed back, seemingly bringing me back to various points in time when pain was the only benefactor of my days. In a snap, I was also brought to occasions of pure triumph and glory.

It fast forwarded to the present, and showed me the dreams I have for myself. The aspirations me and only God know laid down before my eyes. The unseen, of course still not revealing itself, however filled my heart with the amount of trust and faith I needed to look at my future with gleaming hope.

The song goes..

“All that I am, all that I have, I lay them down before You, oh Lord.
All my regrets, all my acclaims.. the joy and the pain, I’m making them Yours

Lord, I offer my life to You
Everything I’ve been through, use it for Your glory
Lord I offer my days to You
Lifting my praise to You as a pleasing sacrifice
Lord I offer You my life

Things in the past, things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my heart, all of my praise
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

What can we give that You have not given?
And what do we have that is not already Yours?
All we possess are these lives we’re living
That’s what we give to You, Lord”

(goes well with this version: http://youtu.be/ywfx6k1IjD8)
What joy it is to have God plan it all for you?

What could be more better than having God direct scenes in your life, being in charge of who comes and goes, cutting and editing where it is necessary? Best hope life comes with those appropriate background songs that faithfully play on cues. With this, I surrendered every aspect in my life fully again, regaining the track I always lose when the rivers of the world drag me with their torrential flows. Total surrender, regaining focus on what`s really important. God, You`re just awesome. As always.